Day 9

Kayla-


In Psalm 9:10 it says "And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you." This makes me think of times when I haven't sought God in the things that I've done. Not very long ago at all I was scared of the changes happening in my life and all the things that come a long with that, and in my fear, I wasn't seeking after God's will for me. Rather than taking a step in faith and trusting that God would see me through it, I tried to be in control and ended up seeking after things that weren't God. It really tore me apart. It didn't take me long to realize that putting my trust in myself because I was afraid, did nothing but rob me from opportunity to serve God with my life and to be satisfied with Him. I remember just being at a place were I was so miserable (and that is not like me at all) and I was done with fear and with my plan, and I told God He could have my life, for real this time. I waived my white flag. And God saw me through it. He has not forsaken me or any of us who seek Him. In what God and taught me about himself, I knew that the only option I had or even wanted was His plan and purpose for me, not only because of who He is and what He has done so graciously for me, but because He has been the one real constant in my life, He has never forsaken me, He cares for me. We so often pour all of our energy and spirit into temporary things (relationships, service, family, work, etc.) but none of those things mean anything without God. With out God those things are pointless (in my opinion). There is nothing we can do in this life apart from God that is worthy or valuable, and we shouldn't be finding comfort, satisfaction, or safety in those things apart from Him. Put your trust in Him, seek after His will, He will not abandon you. And don't take my word for it...take His. 


Blessings. 

Derrick

In the Genesis chapter of today's reading we read about Sarai and Hagar, Sarai being old and not having any children, and wanting to "help God out" she decided to have a son by proxy, through her servant, Hagar.

Wow look what happens when we take Gods will into our own hands, this one incident, created a Nation that hates Israel, oh to be in Gods will and let Him do the work that is needed, I pray that I never take God's will into my hands, not even for a minute....

I'm a control freak, I like to plan, I like to know what is happening when, so letting go and letting God take control of my future is scary, it's not easy for me to do. But I know (by trial and error) that when I take charge of things and live life the way I want to, things don't turn out to be very fulfilling, I completely scramble up God's plan for my life. And I don't want to do that...

I think it's a pride issue, I have a saying that I jokingly use but there is a little truth to it, I say "I'm a pretty humble guy" which in fact anyone saying that they are humble would then be proud and therefore not humble.

Dare I say it? Lord take my pride away, make me truly humble, I'm literally tearing up right now. I want to let go but I don't want to let go...aaaaahhhhhhhh!

Take my life Lord, mold me, make me into the price of pottery that you see, I'm just an ugly lump of clay I have no way to do anything for myself... Make me beautiful!!!!!